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Wiener Writings => Rainbow Bridge => Topic started by: Mike on October 30, 2012, 09:04:22 PM

Title: Empty arms and heart
Post by: Mike on October 30, 2012, 09:04:22 PM
This month Duncan's lymphoma started raising havoc with him.  For the 2nd time he became extremely weak and refused all offers of his favorite foods.  He spent Saturday, Sunday and Monday at the hospital where they hydrated him and ran all kinds of tests.  It appeared the small cell was converting to large cell.  They were able to get his calcium levels down and he was feeling good on Sunday.  The oncologist gave him an injection with a different chemo drug that possibly could keep the lymphona under check.  Yesterday the calcium started rising again and his appetite was on the downswing.  Today he was back to where he was Saturday plus walking hunched over and trembling badly. 

Tonight I laid down on the floor with him trying to comfort his pains and decided I couldn't subject him to more of this and a future of trials, tests and shots that only maybe and might help keep cancer at bay. 

So it is with a aching heart I have to tell you, my dachshund family, that Duncan crossed the Bridge at 9:12 p.m.  The vet tech who assisted him on his journey said she had met Duncan this past weekend and knew all that he had been going through and that I had made the right decision for him.  In the last 15 months he totally captured me and took his place on my right side of my heart to balance Clifford on the left.
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Post by: DeeanDave on October 30, 2012, 09:34:49 PM
Oh Mike.......Our hearts are sad tonight hearing of Duncan's journey to the Bridge.  My friend, October has become a sad month for us.  I'm sure that Sarge will be giving lessons on how to properly chase monster mowers and they will be sharing tales of their favorite toy....the Bobo's.  Hugs to you, Mike.  God-speed Duncan......Dee, Dave, and Duggie
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Post by: papbouv on October 30, 2012, 10:18:16 PM
So sorry for your great loss it is  the one gift we can give our Fur Kids when needed Hugs to you,may Duncan Rest in Peace.
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Post by: BonniesMom on October 30, 2012, 11:00:40 PM
How heart breaking this is to read.  Mike, you did your ALL for Duncan.  You've got to know in your heart that while he was with you for only a relatively short time, he received the most love any dachshund could ask for.  What a buddy he had in YOU.  I'm so sorry his sickness overtook him but you were wise and did the greatest kindness towards your sweet Duncan.  You let him rest and have peace.  No more pain.  Bless you, Mike, for loving such a good boy.  Thank you for being his loving hooman. 
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Post by: Roberta on October 31, 2012, 01:09:42 AM
Mike, our hearts go out to you at this time. No words we know seem to help but know we are thinking of you. You loved that wee guy and it showed.
God speed wee man and watch over yer dad
Rob and Nick and the gang.
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Post by: Spanish Teckels on October 31, 2012, 03:41:47 AM
Mike, we are desperately sorry for your loss and know how bereft you must feel.  What a brave little man Duncan was and such a character.  Clifford will be proud of him too.  Bless you for loving him so much and giving him  the best of life.  We will miss him too.
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Post by: Barb on October 31, 2012, 12:15:04 PM
Oh Mike...... I am so so sorry.... my tears mingle with yours and the others..... you didn't have enough time with him......  :comfort:

Godspeed sweet Duncan - you had the very best 15 months possible...with the very best dad.

Mike - my heart hurts for you....... *hugs*
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Post by: Dee Dee and Hallie on October 31, 2012, 06:05:39 PM
Mike I am so sorry!!!!!! Not fair you had such a short time together and one so full of health issues. Life is not always fair. I know these are empty words right now but he really was so very lucky to have you (and vice versa)!
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Post by: Ruth in MT on October 31, 2012, 11:01:07 PM
Dear Mike,
I am sorry for your loss. 
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Post by: peterparker on November 01, 2012, 06:33:14 AM
Mike
So very sorry for your loss. He's with Clifford now, and will remain cherished and loved forever. He was such a fortunate fellow to spend the remainder of his brief life with you.
Take care,
Kelly
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Post by: Rich on November 01, 2012, 08:15:49 PM
We are so sorry to hear this. We had hoped that you and Duncan would have many years together. Duncan could not have lived out his final days with a better Dad. I know that no one could have done more for him. We grieve with you. Many old friends greet Duncan at the bridge.
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Post by: sollysmom on November 02, 2012, 09:29:28 PM
Oh, Mike.  I am so sorry to hear this.  These little creatures worm themselves into our hearts and make a big hole there when we have to say goodbye to them.  Know that you did the right thing for Duncan, and you will get to see him again one day.  I know how you are feeling, but do remember the good times, it will help a little.

Darcel  :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart:
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Post by: Leslie on November 03, 2012, 09:21:17 PM
Awww, this is a real heart breaker. I'm sorry you're going through this--and so soon. I hope you find peace in the coming days.    Godspeed Duncan.  :heart:         
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Post by: Brekkesmom on November 10, 2012, 06:49:25 PM
How very belatedly am I reading this?  I am soooo sorry for your loss.  I apparently have just not scrolled down and looked at the other topics.  I am sure my dad has one more spot in his rocking chair for Duncan, since my dad never met a dachsie he didn't like!  How hard it is for us to do the best and kindest thing of all for our furkids - and you did it.  Hugs!
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Post by: Merion on November 12, 2012, 11:33:10 AM
Mike,
We are so sorry to hear that you had to let Duncan go.  It is so hard to make that decision.
We all know that Duncan really lucked out finding such a loving and wonderful dad.  Sure wish it had been longer but you gave him a very good life while you had him.
Now he and Clifford must be having a great time telling tales about their time with you.
Sending HHHHHH's for you.
:comfort: :comfort: :comfort:
:heart: :heart: :heart:
Merion & Zena
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Post by: Suzie on December 04, 2012, 01:51:38 PM
Oh Mike, without words here.  Duncan had the best dad he needed the last 15 months.  He was loving and loved. Grieving just sucks, wish I could give you a big hug. You were very brave for both of you. You are in my heart.