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Sunday night (@11:00pm) was ONE OF THE WORSE DAYS OF MY LIFE......
Sunday morning Miss Harley got MUCH worse .... she would NOT drink or eat anything at all... & she cried and whinned in pain. I even put a new Morphine patch on her... it didn't help. She just kept roaming around like she didn't know WHAT to do. She didn't sleep, either. It's said that dogs "let you know when it's time"..... seems that's what she was doing.
I did NOT want her to be in ANY pain ... so I called the Cary
street Vet E.R. to ask if I could apply another patch for the pain?.... (Miss Harley was just there on Sept. 12.... the beginning of this mouth/throat cancer thing.) I told them what was "going on" with her.... they told me "it was TIME"...... or else she could die from dehydration from no fluids in her body .....
I KNEW Harley was telling me she was 'ready"..... the way she was acting & the things she was doing.... (no matter what I offered her... she would NOT eat or drink it.)
Well..... after crying a river of tears.....trying to think of some type of MIRACLE.....
I loaded her in my lap ( wrapped In her favorite blankie)..... went over to the Cary Street E.R. Vet..... telling her ALL the way there how VERY much I Love her !!!... & covering her with kisses !!!
They were so kind there .... first thing they did was take an impression of Miss Harley's pawprint!!! It''s adorable!!!!!! (Made of clay... ya bring it home and bake it in the oven for 15-minues. Turned out precious... and was NO-charge!!!)
I held Miss Harley in my arms while the sweet, compasionate Doctor described the prodedure..... then gave me ALL the time I wanted with Harley before her "trip".
When I was ready.... the Doctor gave Miss Harley a shot to relax her...& THEN... the "sleepy" meds..... & it was SO PEACEFUL!!!! It was like she just drifted off to deep sleep! I am SOOO glad that I stayed with her and held her... until the very end!! It makes the memories so much better.... and the guilt a little less. I wouldn't have done it ANY other way !!! When I handed Miss Harley back to the nurse... she just looked asleep..... she was no longer pacing.... no longer crying in pain.. no longer hurting with that horrible Cancer!! And, I watched them.... they were SO gentle with her!
I MISS her deeply..... but, I KNOW my precious Miss Harley will be at the "RAINBOW BRIDGE". (SEE POEM BELOW).....WAIING FOR ME !!!! It was breaking my heart - watching her in pain and not able to do anything!!!!! I felt so helpless!!!
So.... I just want you all to know that our Brave Miss Harley has gone on to a Better Place & is NO LONGER in ANY PAIN !!!!! MISS HER * REMEMBER HER * BUT, LET HER GO * WE WILL SEE HER AGAIN! *
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"Rainbow Bridge"
Just this side of Heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food and water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing: they miss someone very special to them; who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. The bright eyes are intent; the eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to break away from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together......."
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Brave Miss Harley & MeMe
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We are very sorry to hear about Harley. Having gone through the mouth and throat cancer with our first male Hansel (moosie), we know how hard it is. Sending HHHHHH's :comfort: & PPPPPPP's :pray: for you and Harley.
Merion & the ZZ's
after reading your post I cried as well. I am sorry for your loss and I can not imagine on being there while they helped Miss Harley .. I think your very brave. I understand and know how you feel of your loss. Not only did you lose your pet but, your best friend as well. I wish that my vet would of done the paw thing for me I think that is so wonderful. :heart: :grouphug2: :grouphug2:
I am so sorry for your loss! We are thinking of you during this difficult time :comfort:
So sorry for your loss. You have to believe that Angel Harley is waiting for you at the bridge, playing and running with our Angel Toby who we lost in July, with one eye looking out for you. In time, as Toby did with us, Harley will help you through, and even show you where to find another beautiful Dachsie to love because, no matter how much we love our puppies, they always love us more and they look after us even after we've said goodbye. Harley wouldn't want you to feel guilt. Our babies are clever enough to know that we will always make the best decision for them, no matter what the emotional cost to us. She knows you made the right decisoin and freed her of pain when she needed it most. Trust your instincts and you'll know that to be true, even as I do now with Toby even though I thought I would never be happy again at the time.
Something that may help is to post a memorial to Harley on the Dachshund Memorial Garden site http://home.it.net.au/~opalowl/doxgarden.html We did that for Toby and it's not a depressing place, but a place we can visit and see Toby anytime we want. It makes us feel better to know that anyone can go see our beautiful boy any time. Our thoughts are with you.
Love and kisses from Lucky and family.
I am so very sorry to hear about Harley crossing the Rainbow Bridge. Your pain is truly felt by me as my beloved Rommel passed over the Bridge on 10/27/06 due to kidney failure. Please be comforted to know that Harley and Rommel are both healthy and vibrant again, chasing those nasty badgers!!