Jessie girl

Bratpak and Lauri · March 27, 2009, 01:56:36 AM

Hi all

Jessie passed on peacefully yesterday morning just after 7 am. My vet friend lives on a farm, and when we got there, Jessie saw all the geese, horses and CATS and you can just imagine how exited she was. It was SO hard to go through. But she knew something was up and she just sat quietly in my arms and while I was hugging and kissing and talking to her she slipped away peacefully.

From there I went to the State Vet where where she was individually cremated while I waited. I laid her in the oven myself (just closure for me). After 45 minutes I got the warm ashes back in a glass bottle. Life can be SO cruel and harsh sometimes. When will it be enough???
I can't give details now as my heart is breaking, but just so you know, she and Tommie is now reunited at least...

I try to justify my desicion by saying and knowing I did the "right thing", but when i saw her excitement yesterday morning when arricing on the farm, I have my doubts and maybe I should have waited.

Doing the "right thing" can really almost destroy you also!

Thanks for being here to listen...

David C. · March 27, 2009, 05:28:51 AM

We're so sorry. You did do the right thing. Even if you are 99.9% sure of that, sometimes that 0.1% of doubt will just nag at you. Don't let it do that. Jessie was blessed to have lived her days with you. It's never as long as we want it to be, but I'm sure your life was enriched by her presence as well.

JetEd73 · March 27, 2009, 07:28:16 AM

If knew then what I know now, I would have sent my Simon-Angel to Rainbow Bridge 2 days earlier. I know his last 2 days were the worst of his life, he wasn't in pain, he was just miserable.

janetleej · March 27, 2009, 08:14:50 AM

My heart is with you today.

cheryl186 · March 27, 2009, 08:27:55 AM

My heart is breaking for you Lauri. Please know you did the right thing.

DeeanDave · March 27, 2009, 08:43:45 AM

God Speed Jessie-Angel....Lauri, hugs to you.

sollysmom · March 27, 2009, 10:10:26 AM

My heart breaks for you. I just had to go through the same thing in January. Do know that with time the pain does ease.

Do remember all the good and happy times you had with Jessie, because it will help too.

Darcel

Leslie · March 27, 2009, 10:59:38 AM

This was a very courageous act of love. I am proud of you for making Jessie's needs first.

Yes, she may have perked up at the immediate stimulation of her surroundings, but in my mind, that didn't contradict the whole picture of her physical state...it's that strong, dachsie scent hound gene--the very distallation of their being, that we all love so much, and just shines through no matter how ill they become.

man, I'm crying.

God speed, Jessie

Spanish Teckels · March 27, 2009, 12:55:30 PM

Although your heart is breaking, remember you´ve done the bravest and best thing for Jessie. our thoughts are with you.

Dee Dee and Hallie · March 27, 2009, 02:40:29 PM

You have been through more than anyone should be expected to. I am so sorry, there is nothing harder than going through something like this. I will keep you in my prayers please keep letting us know how you are.

PattyInAK · March 27, 2009, 02:41:35 PM

It is never, ever easy. I am proud of you for being so very brave and for being there 100% for Jessie. It is our biggest gift to our pets when we help them go when its time. I'm sure Jessie felt very secure knowing you were there to make sure she went peacefully. Please know that many of your friends here know exactly what you are going through and we hope you post again soon. You can always talk to us.

peterparker · March 27, 2009, 04:46:36 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so nice that you were able to be there for him in the end.

AnnieofNJ · March 27, 2009, 05:49:47 PM

My deepest sympathy, Lauri. May you find some comfort in the memories of happy times spent with Jessie girl.

Godspeed Jessie.

Annie & the New Jersey Doxie Gang

Barb · March 27, 2009, 07:57:42 PM

Lauri, my heart is just breaking for you, I too, am in tears. What a selfless thing you have done for your child, a mommy can do no more. You did the right thing for her and I know the kids are both watching over your family. We are here for you.... when you need us.

Madderoos Mom · March 27, 2009, 08:26:51 PM

My heart and thoughts are with you today. ((((HUGS))))

papbouv · March 27, 2009, 08:46:33 PM

It is one of the kindest things you can do for a Fur Kid but inside you are just a mess it is so hard but you were so brave Hugs to you,will be thinking of you.

Teresa · March 27, 2009, 09:26:50 PM

What you had to do was so hard, especially after seeing Jesse so excited. One way to look at it is that the last thing she did before going to be reunited with Tommie was something she was enjoying. She had one last good memory here on earth. I think that is important, too.
We will all be thinking about you and watching for you to post again when you can.

doxielady5569128 · March 28, 2009, 09:30:06 AM

I am so sorry you are hurting! What you did was very brave and kind. You didn't do anything wrong. I know nothing I say will take your hurt away, so I won't try. You and your family are in my prayers.

Ruth in MT · March 28, 2009, 11:49:00 AM

I am sorry for your loss. Rest in peace, Jessie.

Merion · March 28, 2009, 09:58:43 PM

We are so very sorry to hear about Jessie.
I know it is one of the hardest things we have to do for our babies. And I know I have always second guessed myself.

You did what was best for Jessie and try to remember she is back with Tommie and am sure they are having a blast together.
Sending HHHHHH's

and PPPPPP's

for all of you.
Merion & the ZZ's

Roberta · March 29, 2009, 12:19:16 AM

Thoughts and hugs with you and yours
Roberta, Nick and da gang

Jessie girl

Madderoos Mom